I was always big, I started getting large from the time I was 4. I was eating calorie dense foods (dairy and gluten free products in the late 90’s) and I was eating a lot of them. I started to get really large in my last years of high school and especially in first year university. I was diagnosed with a hard mental health disorder and I started to eat my feelings more and more until all I was about 250 pounds. I don’t count this as my starting weight because I don’t have a firm number on how large I was.
HOW DID YOUR WEIGHT AFFECT ANY ASPECT(S) OF YOUR LIFE? My weight at my highest held me back from what I was capable of. I couldn’t get the parts I was capable of in theatre. I wasn’t as approachable to people my age and younger. I was capable of walking up a hill without sweating buckets. My body not only weighed me down physically but emotionally, and I truly felt like I took up more space than I was allowed.
WHAT WAS THE “TURNING POINT” THAT GOT YOU STARTED ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY? I stood on the scale at 234 and I was shocked. I was disgusted and I decided to start following people who had lost a significant amount of weight, and then I was hooked!
HOW DID YOU GET STARTED? I picked up a calorie counting app and I took my first pictures. I hated the way they looked and I hated how restrictiveness the app made me feel in the first few weeks, but soon they because my favourite tools.
HOW LONG AFTER YOU STARTED DID YOU BEGIN TO SEE RESULTS OF YOUR WEIGHT LOSS EFFORTS? I saw results in my first month, in the first 5 months of my journey I was loosing 10 pounds a month.
WHAT WAS THE HARDEST PART? I had to start loving myself. I had spent the previous 4 years hating myself so passionately that to look at myself and say “you’re worth any work necessary” was so deifficult but the most important part of my entire journey.
DID YOU EVER WANT TO GIVE UP? WHAT KEPT YOU GOING? Of course there were days that I didn’t want to keep going. Not everyone will agree with me on this, but on those days I take the day off and eat the freaking burger. And then the next day I start again. I use the amazing people of Instagram who have done this before me to keep me motivated when I can’t be on my own.
DID YOU HIT ANY WEIGHT LOSS PLATEAUS? HOW DID YOU OVERCOME THEM? I never plateaued, but September 2017 marked the beginning of my year abroad. Although I’ve still lost 10 pounds, I’ve mostly been maintaining. This is a conscious choice for me, because I want to enjoy my year abroad without exceptions, and worrying about every single thing that went in my body wasn’t helpful.
HOW LONG DID IT TAKE YOU TO LOSE MOST OF THE WEIGHT? The majority of my weight was lost in the first 6 months. I’m hoping to loose the rest of my weight, to hit my goal of 140, over the summer.
DID YOU HAVE ANY NON-SCALE VICTORIES? So many non scale victories. They are honestly the highlight of any weightloss journey. Being able to fit into a size 16, 14, 12 and now 10. Being able to run on the treadmill for 10 minutes straight. Being able to run at all. Shopping in stores that have always been for “skinny girls”. Starting free weights. Being able to lift myself around a pole. Loving myself. Seeing someone worth loving. Accomplishing 64 pounds down. Not giving up.
WHAT DOES YOUR DAILY DIET LOOK LIKE COMPARED TO WHEN YOU WERE HEAVIER? Very much an emotional eater, but I just ate all the time, even when I was very much full. I suffered compulsive eating when I was in high school as part of my mental illness, so food became a comfort to me at all times.
HOW DOES YOUR PHYSICAL ACTIVITY COMPARE TO WHEN YOU WERE HEAVIER? When I started working out I did he thing so enjoyed like waking the dog or dancing. Now I enjoy weight lifting and running and even pole dancing because they are things I wasn’t capable of before.
MY WEIGHT LOSS TIPS & TRICKS
- Make a positive affirmation wall. You’re worth it. (That could be one of them! 😋)
- Water. Water. Water!!!
- Excersice in ways that you enjoy, if you hate running, don’t run!
- Results take time and the scale is not the be all to end all. Take photos and measurments and capability tests.
- Don’t listen to people who rain on your parade. This could even be your mom, but if they aren’t supporting you, ignore them.