I can remember back as early as early childhood being called the chubby girl, being in fifth grade and being asahmed of how my body looked compared to my peers, I was always bigger, chubbier, than everyone else around me, I remember avoiding gym class because I was ashamed of my body, I didnt want to get weighed, this younger fragil time in my life when my self esteem should of been growing was getting tarnished because I didnt fit in,and my peers had no hesitation to inform me that I was diffrent and not accepted
HOW DID YOUR WEIGHT AFFECT ANY ASPECT(S) OF YOUR LIFE? as I grew older and struggled with my weight and self esteem, I started to shy way from friends, and started keeping myself isolated, that way I didnt have to deal with the daily disipointment of not feeling good enough. My weight really got out of control after I had my first child at a young age, I had a daughter whom the doctors said was born with brain damage, so I had blamed myself thinking because I had her while I was young it was my fault my baby was suffering with brain damage, this destoryed what was left of me and I spiraled out of control, eating my way to deaths doors, trapped in depression, trapped in a prison of hell my body all from my own actions, ( later to discover my daughter was born with a rare genetic disorder called Rett syndrome, and it wasnt my fault that she had this) sadly the damage was already done to my body and I was a prisoner in this chaos I did to myself. Feeling lost…. trapped….scared of death….. broken….
WHAT WAS THE “TURNING POINT” THAT GOT YOU STARTED ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY? eventually I had enprisoned myself in my body at 540lbs, the simple task were difficult to perform, it was difficult to breath, and everything became a huge effort, this made me afraid that if I continued this way I would surley die from my own bad choices and leave my children abandoned here and I loved them so much so I knew I had to change, to be here for them, its was my responsiblity. I didnt want them to see me like this, and I didnt want them to be like me so i knew if i didnt change my life for real this time, i would be destroying thier lives too, I loved them too much to continue on like this.
my weight was to the point I had stopped living…..it was time to reclaim my life
HOW DID YOU GET STARTED? My very first step was prayer. I asked God to give me strenght to make these changes and to really live by them, because so many times in my past I would try the newest weightloss trend and convince the people that believed in me ( my family) that this time was diffrent that i would stick to it and loose weight, always to end up falling and failing and gaining back the weight i lost plus some…. so i prayed for God to guide all my ways, to help this time be diffrent to heal me, to give me wisdom because I didnt want a temporay fix i wanted to change my life and live it for ever. I prayed for courage to face myself and all the damage ive done.
my 2nd step was I stopped drinking soda cold turkey i just threw it all out and forced myself to drink water, I had hated water so I drank room tempature water it made it easier.
my 3rd step was making small goals, since it was a effort just to walk I said lets walk 2 squares on the block and once i did that i said lets add 2 more squares until eventually i was able to walk the entire block which was a huge victory for me those small victores built me up and pushed me to make more small goals, i started to like how winning felt.
my 4th self was teaching myself self control threw eating portions. for instance if I would order a italian beef sandwhich id cut it in half and eat one half, put other half away for later time, this taught me how to control myself and not binge eat.
HOW LONG AFTER YOU STARTED DID YOU BEGIN TO SEE RESULTS OF YOUR WEIGHT LOSS EFFORTS? I began seeing results right way, small things at first, like the better food choices i made and the more i moved around the easier it became to breath,
than after two months of being consistant if felt easier to make those right choices for my body
WHAT WAS THE HARDEST PART? I had to over come myself and all the damage I caused not only to my body and health but to my heart, I had broken myself down so much that at one point i was isolated and hated myself, how i looked, i avoided mirrors, cameras, people, so my over comings where
self, self esteem, self worth, self acceptance and self love once i began to work on them specifically daily consistantly I was successful
DID YOU EVER WANT TO GIVE UP? WHAT KEPT YOU GOING? I wanted to quit all the time, but i prayed and I reminded myself why i am doing this… for my children…for me, i deserve to be happy and alive I am worth it.
DID YOU HIT ANY WEIGHT LOSS PLATEAUS? HOW DID YOU OVERCOME THEM? I stayed consistant
HOW LONG DID IT TAKE YOU TO LOSE MOST OF THE WEIGHT? it took me 3.5 years to loose a avergae of 100lbs a year
DID YOU HAVE ANY NON-SCALE VICTORIES? I reclaimed my life, I fought for my health, my mind, my body, and my spirit now each are enriched and full of life,
WHAT DOES YOUR DAILY DIET LOOK LIKE COMPARED TO WHEN YOU WERE HEAVIER? I dont think I ever ate vegtebales in my past, because I was too busy eating fast food, what ever i could order threw drive threws or order on the phone to get delivered to my house. I was a emotional eater, a binge eater, a closet eater, a abusive eater food was poison for me, i had become poison to myself,
I remember one time going to white castles and I was so morbidly obese that I couldnt even fit into the handicap assesable sitting area there wasnt enough room between the table and the wall where the chair pulled out for mybody to fit, i felt ashmaed and never went back again.
HOW DOES YOUR PHYSICAL ACTIVITY COMPARE TO WHEN YOU WERE HEAVIER? people always ask me how are things diffrent Now for you, I like to explain it like this….I used to feel like a prisoner trapped in my own body restricted in all areas of life because of my weight and NOW i feel like a soldier of life, I am capable and able to do anything and i have so much energy it feels good to be alive.. I am excited to be alive…I look forward to waking up each morning , excited to participate in my childrens lives and excited to see what I personally can achieve today.
MY WEIGHT LOSS TIPS & TRICKS
- surprise yourself daily
id always give myself a ridiculous challenge see if I could beat myself
- have a plan…. make a map of your success than travel it reward yourself with travel points to a exotic location to celebrate
- discover ways to make your water interesting,
id research different fruits and make water cocktails to flush fat or burn fat or cleanse, or energy
- try new reciepes and be open to new foods, youd be surprised how amazing some un discovered foods are
- believe in yourself at all times, take too many photos and don’t be afraid to log your progress don’t worry about the opinons of others
this is YOUR LIFE DEFINE IT