As a child my family as very poor, my father was a minister of a cult church and lived a ver unorthadox life spending many years moving from town to town. A few of those years living in a Winnebago mom worked at a restaraunt and had 2 jobs so all we ate was piza ior macaoroni and cheese unless we ate out. Food gave me solace and eventually became my heroin.s
HOW DID YOUR WEIGHT AFFECT ANY ASPECT(S) OF YOUR LIFE? I could barely breath, i could barely walk, and i could not look at myself in the mirror My weight was a physical manifestation of my suffering. i was very secure inside about many things, so i was confused. I as strong in ho i was, but i was insecure about acceptance of others due to the constant abuse from others about my weight, and my clothing, and my oder from not being able to shower properly and have clean clothes. I had a skin condition which made my skin peel and gave bme cracks and blisters on my skin and cracks in my nails so they al called me the freakmmonster. The weight reminded me that forever after it healed.
WHAT WAS THE “TURNING POINT” THAT GOT YOU STARTED ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS JOURNEY? People are usually good at not mentioning the weight of an obese person. they fee its better to not acknowledge it so they don’t hurt your feelings .Finally one day a good friend of mine scalded me because i sat on my motorcycle to ride down hill everyone was walking down becaus eit was hard for me to walk down it. and it was not a very big hill. He was harsh and said extremely offensive things about my weight and how he was not going to watch me kill myself. he said many curse words and i lost it and so i told him to go F&*% himself, etc… A few days later i kept thinking about what he said and went to watch a few videos of me performing on stage and began seeing the reality of what i had done to myself. i went into the bathroom to look at a mirror and i broke down crying and collapsing on the ground. I had been in a depression for a long time and after i got up i remembered a show called the biggest loser and decided to watch it. I was immediately captivated, jillin michaels said everything i needed to hear. i felt as though she was speaking to me. i sat on my couch eating fat and carbs while watching an entire season in 2 days.
HOW DID YOU GET STARTED? I watched the biggest loser and began taking notes, and youtubing exercise and reading jillian michaels and bob harpers blogs and youtube videos and books and began acquiring knowledge.It was only a week until the new year so i decided to begin on new years and be a glutton or the wast week. I had not a lot of cash so i went for 2 weeks to 3 different gyms getting their free trials. the first week was insanity. all i did was 20 minutes on a recumbent bike at level one and thought i was going to die. I had an epiphany and decided i needed to completely change my life, and the notion of taking on the journey as they did on the biggest loser romanticized in my mind and i felt an epic motivation from within. I decided to leave my band and focus my entire life completely on losing weight.and so it began.
HOW LONG AFTER YOU STARTED DID YOU BEGIN TO SEE RESULTS OF YOUR WEIGHT LOSS EFFORTS? After the first week i lost ten pounds. and i could feel my body cleansing itself. I could feel my strength grow and, to acomplish that realy hit me. i felt as though i could do this for real
WHAT WAS THE HARDEST PART? I was completely broke, i had a beloved Harley and some bass guitars and gear and a great friend who let me crash in the living room of his double wide. . I sold everything i owned to survive so i could focus all my time and energy on changing my life. I was not going to perform my bass playing on a stage while sitting down again. I was going to die and in my mind there was nothing else that mattered so i did not do anything that would get in the way of my journey.I eventually ended up living in mt 1987 toyota pickup and was on food stamps and still, every day i woke, ate some breakfast, kale spinach, naked juice green machine and some granola, and wen t right to the gym and did a yoga lass to warm up and plug in my laptop and cell phone so i would charge the batteries while i worked out. then i grabbed my cell phone and laptop and went to a spin cycling clas and after both clases i would be fully charged. Then i would go eat a light snack and go for a bike ride for about 3 or 4 hours with plenty of hills. I would average 40 or 60 miles a day. Then when i got back i would go to the gym for another sin class then an hour on the elliptical, or some two kind of classes. I wold mix it up often. My financial situation was my first challenge
My biggest challenge was loneliness. i lost many unsupportive friends along the way and had my heart break a few times and was pretty muh agoniing, but it gave me even more fuel for the fire. i was training like an athelete and felt amazin.. I had a few people from a far that cared but no one in my life directly realy cold grasp what i as going through and the level of focus i needed to maintain training at that level and cleansing myself not only of fat but of negativity and self loathing and letting go of all the pain i had soaked into my fat. I had no one directly to talk to or to give me encouragement or push me. i had to generate Godzilla sized level of motivation to endure this level of training. I realize i could have done it in a more orthodox way but the challenge of it all i felt was necessary to help me realize my true potential. i felt if i could do this just like they do on the biggest loser with out a show, or a ranch, or support of others going through my ssame journey that i could do anything and show any one else out there who has no one that they can do it too. because what one man can do another can do.
Another challenge was getting a hernia. I had about 50lbs to go and i went to ask about skin surgery and found out that i had a hernia. I had to have a hernia surgery so i could not stay in my truck, so i had to go stay at my families doublewide while i recovered. It put me out for a hile as i had the core of my body weakened. And to be in this vulnerabe place trapped with the people i felt i was destroyed by was like soaking and fermenting in a trigger. Psychologically irealy got low there. it was like being trapped in a sea of sadness watching my family still living the same insanity they had once fed into me. BUt it as something i think i needed to do.. After time i manned up and after watching their insanity i was realizing how much i had changed. I remembered that this as NOT who i was any more and i created a bubble around myself.This is where i came from, but this was not where i was, so i used that and after a few huge raging fights i went back to focusing on my weight loss and still lost weight with mild exercise i could barely do as i had to regress in my weakened condition. It was frustrating to epic proportions, yet i pushed through and the idea of ho incredible it would be to overcome something like this gave me fuel.
DID YOU EVER WANT TO GIVE UP? WHAT KEPT YOU GOING? As surprising as it is, i definately wanted the pain to stop, but i never wanted to give up.
DID YOU HIT ANY WEIGHT LOSS PLATEAUS? HOW DID YOU OVERCOME THEM? I did have a few but not very many, i always mixed things up all the time to prevent it. There was a couple times where i only lost a pound or something but i always lost something. I got on the scale every single day to face the reality. it helped my tune into my body and feel what a calorie was and develop a deep sense of my energy and its connection to food.
HOW LONG DID IT TAKE YOU TO LOSE MOST OF THE WEIGHT? I lost 230lbs in 19 months
DID YOU HAVE ANY NON-SCALE VICTORIES? My non scale victories are the true victories. the weight loss is merely a physical manifestation of the mental state. i went from a fat lazy negative sad being spreading darkness, to a happy positive optimistic vibrant athletic happy persoI ihave become a personal trainer and help others find the potential within them what ever that may be. I also went to school to becoe a personal trainer and for the first time in my life got all A’s and become a ember of the ABK honor society. In my previous life i was a poor student, and got all D’ and F’s The most important victory is i fell in love with myself,and life.
WHAT DOES YOUR DAILY DIET LOOK LIKE COMPARED TO WHEN YOU WERE HEAVIER? I process my own food and eat based on nutrient content not the size.
HOW DOES YOUR PHYSICAL ACTIVITY COMPARE TO WHEN YOU WERE HEAVIER? I still train a couple hours a day 6 days a week. The gym is my new heroin.
MY WEIGHT LOSS TIPS & TRICKS
- Remind yourelf WHY you are doing this, and find ays to stimulate the emotional passion. itcan help provide fuel to get going.
- Look up stories of others who have accomplished what you want to accomplish, THis will help sink into your mind that it CAN be done. What one person can do, another can do.
- Systematically go through each of your favorite food dishes until you find a way to make it in a ay that is healthy so you dont feel like your not satisfied. you do not need to eat nasty food to eat healthy. For instance i loved burritos, so i made burritos a thousand times to get it right learing healthy ingrediants, and i actually like the flavor even better than my old fatty greasy salty burritos. Or ice crem, coconut milk ice cream is great. Piza, there is even a healthy ay to make a pizza that doesnt taste like a fake nasty flavorless thing. that was hard to find.
- spend ten minutes every day looking up SOMETHING about nutrition, wether its the nutrient value of kale, or hat is carb loading, or something.one thing, every day five days a week. anything you are curious about. after time you will be surprised about ho much you know and understand about food and ho it effects our body.Be true to yourself.